Just Another Lost Star

Sometimes, one keeps asking the same questions over and over again, hoping that the answer would change this time. That the reply will make the pain go away, make things like they were before, make you forget the reality. But reality never changes. And neither does the answer.

Wait. What? 4/5

" Well at least I've skipped over the bargaining. It is like a pox on my mind. I think the pain of this transition is the sharpest memory I'm going to have for a long long time. It is a miracle I'm able to get up in the morning. I eat, I work, I function fine. But days just seem to pass in limbo. Everything around me moves at an incomprehensible pace, and I feel stuck inside the cages of my mind. Feels like I'm being burned alive, while I lay immobilized on the bed. And I cannot avoid it. And probably I should not, anyway. Let it burn, and cleanse my soul ." 4/5

28th Sept 2010,   I watched this anime for the first time today. And now, I look at the uselessness of my hands as I try to do one push up and realise that my arms aren't strong enough to lift my weight, forget about trying to do anything else with them... Seriously, how does it feel to have so much strength? Maybe I'll never know :P Or maybe I will.

Do you ever fear reaching a height in your life that can't be reached again? Have you ever felt something so beautiful that everything seems colorless against it? I have, and it sucks, man! Yes, it's beautiful to look back at that moment and think of how you felt then. But there's only so many times you can replay memories and be happy about them, howsoever fond you might be of them. Fact is, you need it to keep happening. Every day of your life. I am not being a philosopher here, but I always want to keep believing that my life gets better from here. I want to dream big, bigger than reality, and live for it to come true and keep doing it. Does it end at it coming true? Well, I don't know, but it sure would kill a lot of fun for me. I think the point of life is not to reach a goal or a destination. I think the point of life is not life after death or living in others' memories after it. I think the point of life is living it. Not for tomorrow, or yes...

Damn you're fast! :D 2/5

1/5

Please give me a second grace Please give me a second face I've fallen far down The first time around Now I just sit on the ground in your way Now if it's time to recompense for what's done Come, come sit down on the fence in the sun And the clouds will roll by And we'll never deny It's really too hard for to fly. Please tell me your second name Please play me your second game I've fallen so far For the people you are I just need your star for a day. So come, come ride in my my street-car by the bay For now I must know how fine you are in your way And the sea sure as i But she won't need to cry For it's really too hard for to fly.