Deep Impact

When you are insane, you are busy being insane - all the time... When I was crazy, that's all I was. - Sylvia Plath




The world is divided into two classes of people: The insane and the dumb.
All my life, I've lived with insane people. People with the loftiest intelligence and the sharpest brains.People who'd voluntarily dive into some ambiguous crap (ranging from philosophy to chemistry to any random stuff the insane brain can think of) and come up with unconventional ideas that would make me say, "Dude, that was awful. But you are great."
(You know I'm talking about you, don't you? :P). Cheers.
We lived in a closed nutshell, oblivious to the outside world, in that enigmatic place called Anushakti-Nagar. Having lived all my life there, I can tell you that it is a maniac's hub. Extremely talented people, (I'm not talking about the gen. flux of humanity), people with brains ravaging enough to crush mine, who'd switch from the punk mode to the cold, ruminative, introspecting avatar in a jiffy, which would always leave me baffled and elated and wanting for more. Ambitious people, people who knew they had a place to go and were always on the lookout for that some place.

Friends who added depth to me as a human being, with whom I could sing pyar hua ikraar hua in the middle of the road, jeering at every onlooker who gives a damn :).
Idiots who would explain how Neils Bohr and Albert Einstein had turned into cold rivals.
Psychos who'd share their crushes with me, only to be taken over by my innocent mind, with whom I could discuss the Senior K. (as well as the junior K. :P)
Dumbheads who could gauge my every mood and poke their nose in every matter of mine, even if I didn't want them to. (Did I tell you that I loved the attention you showered on me?? :D)
It's amusing to me how the word saali from them would be enough to make my day.
Well, the shell is gone now, and I am here.





How I miss you guys...


***

After coming here, something tells me that I've stooped a level lower. I know not whether these five years are just gonna add to the already moulded case of mine or push it to the breaking point, but I do know that they're gonna have a very deep impact. I just hope I'm able to find the intensity, zeal and vigour and enthusiasm I'm so used to. Till that time, I'll try to refrain myself from having three bottles of Fanta a day at C'not. And I'll keep looking.



I'm not insane, I'm just smarter.



Comments

Anonymous said…
Give your brains a break.
September 12, 2009 at 9:03 PM
White_Fang said…
Class Post ... wish i could write like this ...
January 6, 2010 at 7:58 PM
Starfire said…
@White Fang
You don't have to wish. I know you can. And you do.
January 6, 2010 at 9:57 PM
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